This is Brian...over

This is Brian from earth.
Nice to meet you, everybody.
My planet is beautiful and welcome to visit my home.
B....B....B....B....

Shame

Imagining a cup of beverage on a table in a log cbabin, and then answering the question...How much beverage is the cup filled with? The answer is going to reflect that how much confidence you have. I did the question long long time ago. My answer was that the beverage was overfilling the cup, as a fountain. When I know the meaning of the question, I was so proud of myself, even I didn't know where my confidence came from. There is a Chinese dictum,"It is better to be a head of a rooster than a tail of a bull." A rooster is definitely smaller and weaker than a bull. What it means is that it is a good choice to be the best one in a smaller and weaker group rather than the worst one in a bigger and powerful group. Is it all right? I was not sure at all. However, I consider that it is totally wrong, but it is just my personal perspective. I was in the situation, the head of a rooster,in my whole life mostly. The feeling was great and satisfied, and even you can say it was as beautiful as a dream. It would do well to keep staying in the dream and wishing the day to wake up would never arrive. Unfortunatily, I woke up that day, and the fact just slapped across my face cruelly. I comprehended that there are countless kinds of "animals" in the world except "roosters" and even "bulls". There are rats, dogs, sheep, tigers, giraffe, hippopotamuses, elephants, whales, and something much bigger or smaller. There are no more pride. There are no more hubris. All those invisible reception would merely expose how faint I am, how craven I am, and how weak I am. What a shame! WHat a shame! I will chewed you as more as I can. I will feel the worst feeling you gave to me genuinely. There are no more ranks in my life in future. My opponent is only one who is I. I will be the opponent forever. I won't forget the shame they gave to me. The day was January 11, 2008.

Is it true? Women prefer bad huys?

It is a rule ~ Women prefer bad men. Yes or no? Thank you to remind me this. Time can cure spiritual illnesses, and release us from troubles. Sometimes it erases happiness passingly. What my purposes here are learning English, looking for my real goals, making friends and changing myself. I have kind of achieved two purposes which are studying English and making friends; however, I have not found my final goals here and the worst thing is that I modify myself back to the original one who is the Brian in Taiwan. Dear friends, you are definitely right. I think too much to lose the chances which I should grasp to arrange myself again. Human being is not a machine. How can I fix it or modify it? Fortunately, I can and you can, too. I can do "it" if I want to do it. Don't be afraid. The role I perform in the same way for thirty-five years almost, and it is the perfect time to change now.

I met a philosophy girl

After a peaceful party, I felt good. It was a ...hum, party in Chinese style, but I spoke English only in a Chinese community. I was so gross. If i saw someone did this knid of thing, I would kick him out for sure. Therefore, I kept quiet hardly because I was talktive. Haha! As all you know it was useless. I talked a lot. What is life? Maybe it is true that Life is eating, drinking, digesting and sleeping. People always think too much. I have a dream about being a famous person in the world. By what? Maybe a chef, a polit, a teacher or a businessman. A girl told me that the famous chefs in the world almost grow up in France and Italy. Now here are the second witness who is "talking" with me. Okey, I believe you all. Maybe it is my destiny to learn Italian. There is filled with surprises in my life, maybe it is long enough to experience defferent events. Still. I still can't give up my idea which is that I don't have a normal life only. Is this the thing what always force me to move on a strange way? I am thinking....It seems abvious without doubt. That's why I have to be alone usually and I always think something unusually. Is it? Nobody can answer htis question for me but I. *About the picture, this is aperson who knows what she wants and how she could reach the goal.

WHAT do I want to do?

It is not the first time and it won't be the last time either to be asked this question. I wonder why I can't answer this question anymore. It has been so easy to respond, ever. The answer is there, not far away, but I can't or I wouldn't like to go forward to touch it. I wonder if I am afraid about something what I had buried deeply long time ago? What is your favorate fruit? What is your favorate colour? What is your favorate sport? What sort of animal is your favorate? What kind of girl do you like? What kind of job do you want to get? What kind of life do you desire? What kind of person do you want to be? What ........ I looked at these geese, and they looked at me too. I was thinking, "You are so cute, beautiful and plump. Don't you feel cold? Don't look at me like that way. Seems like you are human beings and I am the animal." Geese were thinking too, "Are you idiot? It is so cold today. What are you doing here? If I am you, I would like to stay at home whole winter. And don't look at me like this way, seems you are human being with pride. I don't give you a shXt." What kind of person I want to be is like this. WHat kind of goose I want to be is this too. I must release something inside via some special way. I am in a bottleneck. I need more space .\ /.

This time I feel "FINAL"

Today is our final lunch. Again. This is my second time. What's the difference? This time, there are three classmates who will go back "home" after this lunch. The real "Home". The feeling is complex. Separation is always hurt. We make friends in two months. This kind of friendship is so brittle, but sometimes it is so flexible accidentally.It is necessary to spread some magical powder in our relationship. What we have today, we will share that in our future. Dear young students, the main point is to improve your English definitely; however, the treasury is friendship. It is a bonus, but it can not be the mainpoint. It is tricky, but it is easy to earn. Nevertheless, easy come, easy go. We will see. Professor Masaaki Yatsuzuka, General Manager Paola Mariani, still Professor Patricia Glogowski, haha. Nice to meet you at this time. Before you become big whales, I would like to treasure our pure relationship sincerely. One day, you will develop the person who breathe mature temperament, and you are going to become a charming, appealing and complete "you". When that time, we will have various topics to talk with each other, and we will have a long time to warm up our friendship. Before that day comes, please take care of yourselves. Wish all of you have wonderful and fantastic future. Good luck!!

Memory, sad, hold it tightly, until you feel it is joyful

I am auspicious. Originally, I think I "should" skip 5B to 5A; however, my writing was too terrible to skip. Now I am gonna finish my session in 5B, and I am pretty sure that I am lucky to be "their" classmate. My dear classmates! This is life. If everything just goes by your plan, can you imagine how boring your life will be? Because of darkness, we could understand what brightness is. Because of something happened unexpectedly, we start to know that life is brittle, but it can be flexible, too. Treasuring what we already had, and it is not necessary to be regret or jealous if something didn't go by your mind. We are smart, yet we are stupid enough. Opening your hands and releasing what you already have, then you can get what you really want. Dear classmates, one day, when you are my age, some of you will yearn for this period of time because you enjoyed the time with us so deeply. 2 months! What can you do in 2 months in your country? Earn $10,000 dollars? Buy several pairs of luxurious shoes? or you can get married with someone you love. In YUELI, we spend 2 months on meeting new friends. Do you know that somebody will exist in your life forever? Do you know there are something changed inside of you. If you didn't feel that now, don't worry, you will. Next time, when you travel to Bulgaria, Poland, Taiwan, Japan, Italy, China and Korea, you are gonna observe that you have been here before, yet you didn't.