About the movie~The Bucket list

Two old men created a wonderful story. Nobody would expect there will be a happy ending. Because they are dying and soon. What are we going to do if we know there are only six months for us? Take the process of cure diligently or stay at home to spend time with family? Can we do what they did? Death is not what we are afraid about, the understanding of we are dying is scary. How about make a list about what i want to do in my life? DOn't say there are nothing i really want to do before I am dead. Think it seriously and deeply. You will find there are too many things that you desire to do but you didn't realize it. Because the reality is there. It always reminds us what we should do now.Prepare for the life when we are old. Prepare for life then we can have better lives. You must hear this before~You have to love yourself first, then you know ow to love others. Let's make it expended a little bit. If you don't know how live well now, how come you will have a better life in the future. DOn't lie to ourselves. Don't feel pity with ourselves. We are the bosses. We are the creaters. Before you start your fantastic life, think about it for a while, then make sure you are living in the life you enjoy in. Maybe we are not smart enough to choose what is right. How about try not to waste time in what we don't really want to touch. Life is complicated. Human being is complicated too. I am and so are you. I do appreciate the people who encouraged me to be here. Even who discourage me. all of you are my energy. I am the machine, and i can translate it. By the way, today i had a good time. It was amazng. I fell down so many times. It was god damn hurt. My right arm is sore, but my spirit is clear. When is the next time I go snowboarding?

It is a nice night~

It was weird. On Friday night, i spent three hours on walking and taking buses and subtrains. On saturday night, I spent time on waiting people and feeling sad and angry. What is happened? Nobody wanted to go out tonight? I was confused. Although I had a good time to eat and drink with my friends, it is pity to face the acward situation. I have no idea that I did something wrong or .... anyway, what the fucking hell! It is better to be myself. i know sometimes there are no answers and reasons. SO i give up. i accept it as i gobble a cluster of pasta. I take it as it is my probloem. But what face sould i show them later? Smile? Anger? or soemthing else. Thank you all. It is my first time to meet this weird situation. I didn't know how to stand it int he beginning. Maybe i don't know it yet. it is not my problem ,and why i have to spend time on thinking about it. now , stop and do my business. I will have a good day tomorrow.

Long Vacation

My vacation is going to the destination.
"There is always a purpose behind an event." Pro Glogowski said.
However, the purpose is not obvious and immediate.
I believe whatever you did, you will get the return later. No exception.
Soon or later.
Yesterday I finished everything I have to do.
Today is the first day of my last vecation.
I don't know why I feel weird...
I forgot everything I learned.
I started to remember everything about Taiwan, but I am still here.
And I started to miss here. Toronto. shit....
Because of friends or other things?
Ever, I thought I was suffering.
I am not sure it is enjoyment or suffering now...
Review my life, I always choose the most difficult one or the most relaxed one.
In the military, about jobs, related to girlfriend, even now...
I consider maybe this is why i always think what Morrie said
"Are you the person who you want to be?""Do you live in the life what you want to live in?"
This is my culture
Do what should be done. Don't be selfish. .....
IS my definition wrong or the wrong one is my culture?
This decision was my first one for myself.
My dear friend sunderstood my situation, and they knew I needed it
What they gave me was blessing when I was leaving.
I am confused because I obtain too much memory in six months.
Do we have next chance to have a lunch?
Do we have next opportunity to snowboard?
Do we , DO we........

Valentines day

I am lost.
The feeling is relaxed.
It seems it is on purpose.
I am supposed to be in this blurred situation.
Now i am here. you are there. everybody is everywhere.
Happy morning afternoon evening night midnight Valentines day

I met an Angel from North....

You told me that I am the angel to listen to you. I never told you that you are the angel who kept talking with me. But you are and I have not told you. An fat and strong angel. Haha. It is not important whether an angel is fat or slim, weak or strong, beautiful or ugly! Because, you are a cute angel. In my culture, we don't express our feeling directly, but you are. What I am looking for, you have. I am not sure I am looking for a daughter too? Fortunately, I got one who is bigger enough. haha. It was amazing to spend money in that kind of speed. I did it all the time in my hometown, but "this" is different. Too many things just happened, yet I could not imagine them previously. Suddenly I am here already. I love Canada more and more. Ever, I thought I changed a lot. I spoke English. I ate hotdogs to be my lunch every noon. I made sandwiches to be my snack every afternoon. And I believed it is good to have an apple everyday, then I did it all the time. What I did was like a western person. However, what I thought was like Taiwanese. There is always a voice trying to tell me something but it is too light, too soft. I have to be more concnetrated. "am I the person who I want to be?" "Do I do everything what I want to do?" It is not necessary to be dying, it do need to live lively.

About Windsor

It was a capricious decision. I gave myself a one week vacation to visit Windsor. It was a correct decision definitely. I understand what live is after I spent the time only on sleeping, eating, reading and playing poker except watching TV and playing video games. In that period of time, I read one chapter of "Tuesdays of Morrie" about death and one chapter of "becoming vegetarian". Some familiar sentence came out again. " Are you the person you want to be? Do you live in the life you want to live?" DO I? How to distinguish a person who is brave or not? Can he walk alone in a dark street at midnight? Or dare he challenge the authority? It is brave without doubt, but how about presenting ourselves nakedly without any affectation? I know I can not do it now. I am so afraid to lose my friends if I jusy be myself. It is ridiculous, isn't it? It happens in my life always. When I have a completely private time with myself, I can think everything deeply. When I am exhausted, my feeling becomes more sensitive. Everytime I lose something, I regret why I didn't make decision earlier.

Time is passing

Everything is changing. Niagara Falls was changed. Water was frozen, and the river was filled with ice. Frankenstein still hold that giant hamburger, but he looked older. KingKong stayed on the top of the skyscraper everyday, yet it was abvious to tell that he was bored. I was there with new friends in a snowing day. It was cold, and wet. I saw an ashtray in the middle of two elevators. It was clean and shiny. I just knew that it was discourage to smoke indoors since two years ago. Everything is changing. I am here in the third day of my vacation. It's such quiet. Occasionally, the sound of turning pages could be heard. And the sound from the fan in my historical laptop came out unexpectablly. Today is a sunny day, but I know it is cold outdoor. Sunshine is penetrating through windows and filling the livingroom with brightness. I can tell. I can tell there are soemthing changed in the interior of me. I met friends yesterday. Shun Mike Natalia Pit Tina..... If it is proper to say that, then I will say, "The world where I live in is composited by people, by friends, and by emotion." "The person I want to be is the support in your worldS." The old world I had lived in thrity years collapsed several years ago. The new world I am living in is building up, and it become bigger and various. A person told me this morning ....You "should" learn how to be humorous person. I thought it deeply, and then didn't give a shit. Who do you think you are? I know who I am more than you. Don't tell me that. before you know me.