Leave or stay

no surprised. My mind changed again. I hate the noise and sick smell in the factory, but I like these people who treat me as their foreign friend and work around me everyday. Leave or stay? I have an unobvious aim, there where is not far away and maybe it is really close. The biggest problem in my life is I don't know what I do want to do or achieve. However, I try my best to make it clear and specific. Time always playes the most important rule in significant events. Just few minutes ago, my best friend asked me to go back to Taiwan to open "OUR" business sincerely, as soon as possible. I am excited about it very much. EVen now. My answer is "YES" for sure. See, few seconds previously, I am anxious about where I should stay to develop a new career. And now, I am thinking how to leave asap and to grasp the chance which comes suddenly tightly. Anyway, I am happy to meet this situation at this moment. It is hard to sleep well this night. Of course, it is not about negative stuff. It is all about my dear friends and our new business. Ya!!

English

I do wish I can go to Canada to improve my English again. Here is the place where includes not only my strange thoughts, but my poor English. lol. I have no idea how poor my English is now; however, I am still enjoy writing something in English. Maybe it is an enjoyment for me to write, and it is going to depress my English teacher gradually. Please accept my sincere apology. I love English still. If there is one more chance, please let me be a foreign student to study English abroad again. Moreover, it will be wonderful to be Patricia's student one more time. Words are such a cool and unflexible media to describe everything. I am in Malaysia now. Here I can speak Chinese, Taiwanese, Malay, and English. Still English is the most popular language to be used in eating, shopping, and dealing with most stuff. I am keeping reading some novels and articles all the time. Well, I wonder if my English can become better after I finish these books. The rules of English are just in every sentence and every chapter. It is like I am doing an experiment to make sure whether it is a good way (or maybe a short cut) to improve any kinds of languages. Anyway, let me get some money first, then spend it overall later. :))

I just wanna write something down

It is all the same. It takes time to make new friends, especially foreigners and people who think about you with negative emotion in the beginning. Also, it takes time to adapt new situations, especially there are different languages and concepts in it. Gratually, I found that different language is not such an important element in daily life or communication. Body language is a international language definitely. Smile is also the best way to say hello to strangers without words. I love the way that Malay show to new friends. They smile suddenly from cool facial expression when they find you are looking at them. haha. Slowly, suddenly, but freidnly. The reason is not clear, but I always felt their smiles were come from their hearts. Sincerely. If I smile at somebody in my hometown, they will think I am a crazy guy or somebody who wants to take advantage from them. I am really enjoy about the way to meet people even though it made me tired sometimes. Someone has said that you will comprehend culture shock after you stay at an new country more than 6 months. Well i think it is an average,not for everyone. I got the shock strongly recently. It is fortunate that I am mature enough to figure out the major stuff. Good articles are also the effective nutrition to enrich my spirit and thought.

The most importante thing is ....

What is the most important thing in your life? It is easy to ignore it while you are looking for something concentrately or busy for doing something. Is it money? Is it position? Is it famiy? Is it parents? girlfriend? boyfriend? children? or ..... I found that I was confused previously. I supposed that how to be successful in work was my temporary goal. However, in fact, it was not. I figured out that how to get a girlfriend as soon as possibe was the one I cared about. Nevertheless, it was not. SO what do I exactly care about in my life? The people I love very much, and the animals I love very much, too. It is merciless for me to live without them. An old station reveals," When you lose it, then you are going to know how it is important and precious truly. And unfortunately it will be too late. Suddenly I found what I always argued with or worried about is usual the worthless stuff and people. After that, I felt exhausted to do anything. Such as eating a strawberry cake, I was used to taste cake first and enjoy the strawberry lastly. Sometimes, I was too full to enjoy the beautiful strawberry. Such as I have to finish several works, I always made small stuff first, and dealed with big ones with my tired brain and body. Of course, the results were not good enough, no adult. It is about different thoughts, values and opinions. Today, I miss that cat, that person, that moment. If I can one more choice, I won't let it escape from my arm. Except missing, I wanna do something more.

no time to waist II

We all know it, but we are still doing it. It is the exact problem. I know I have to grasp some related knowledge, but I am still here surfing on the internet. I know I am hungry to obtain more sources, but I am reluctant to move my eyes away from my laptop. Knowing something is not equal to realizing it. There is as a switch which can modify the situation to a better one; however, the difficulty is how to find it and make it work. I think I found it already and my right hand is on it too. So why am I hestitated to switch it? Afraid of changing the stable life which I am immersing in? Or afraid of the future "I" who I cannot handle very well? Or I am a coward in fact? Maybe the answer is not the point. The importance is that it is time to make a decision which I should make long long time ago while I was an ambitious person who was fear of nothing. Time makes me smarter but timid. Or I should say I made myself cowardly but accuse time to be the excuse and the guilty cause. Heart will be the true and loyal friend all the time. Even my thought told me something logically, my heart would make me feel uncomfortable if it is logical but not fit to the real ME. Believe in thought, believe in brain, or believe in heart are all up to myself. No try, no failure. No failure, no success. No adventure, no hurt. No pain, no gain. No loss, either no gain. It is not a exchangeness. It is where the worth exists in. Cannot be ignored or erased. No wonder Nike is so populr. Just do it. DO it. As I remember that Jammy who is the most famous chef in London and in the television recently said," I don't fxcking care about your mother's flavour, just try it. God damn try it." I love the ways he did to encourage people to taste new flavor and foreign dishes. I believe he had already gotton a lot of abuse, rejection, and also admiration. I believe he can achieve everything he wanna do in this kind of spirit and determination. shxt. My friend just told me,"relax, relax."
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50 cent coffee

quoted from: casualcoffee.ning.com/
That was a rainy afternoon. It's raining cats and dogs while I was looking for some data around three buildings. The weather in Malaysia is unexpected. When I was exhausted to move, there was a line leader who was drinking a cup of hot, black coffee invited me to take a rest with him. The rain was pretty heavy, and we could just stood on a corner of factory. He asked me everything about my previous job with a kind smile. I didn't talk too much but listened. He was curious about me and also my future. Will I go to China? Will I go back to Taiwan? Will I ..... Then he said,"You will be an important person." I was shock with silence and returned,"You are the important person." He laughed happily. I said," I will go to have a cup of coffee. You seems enjoy it very much." Ha laughed widely and showed me a gentle gesture. I went out and walked toward a vending machine which I reluctant to use it in Taiwan. It was rest time for all operators meanwhile, so there were full of operators under that shed because of the aweful rain. I was so clumsy to take out my coins while some operators were looking at me directly. A husky but shame and kind line leader who wore a green polo shirt as other labor and a heart shape tatoo which I thought it was for his lovest woman on his left cheek pointed at the blurred instruction and said,"50 cents, 50 cents". I smiled at him gently and put two 20 cents and one 10 cents into the vending machine slowly. There were four choices which were black coffee, coffee with sugar only, coffee with milk only, and coffee with sugar and milke both. But it displayed in Malay what I have learned only "Thank you". :) That made me confused and I raised a question," Could you tell me which one is coffee with sugar?" Another leader said," Gula, Gula." "Sugar? Is it sugar?" I wanted to make sure it."Yes, sugar. Sugar is Gula. Susu is milk." That husky leader explained."You can choose coffee and galu, if you want it sweet." I answered,"Yes, I just want some sugar with it." Then I pressed the "Coffee with Galu" botton and watched the old style vending machine working. It dropped down a paper cup and poured deep brown color coffee few seconds first, then some hot water into the small paper cup. I thought the volume of the paper cup was around 150 ml. When it was done, I took it out carefully as I was afraid to squeeze out the sparse coffee. After sucking a little bit, I explored out,"too sweet" while these operators were watching me with interests. Suddenly they laughed loudly and joyfully. I laughed at myself and laughed with them but without embarrassment. I didn't know why that atmosphere was so easy to make people laugh happily and it was indeed. :))I knew they were not laughing at me(or maybe they did laugh at me?! haha), but what words came out my mouth after I bought a same coffee as they did as usual. So simple and pure happy hour. A cup of Malay coffee, friendship, and a lot of laughs cost 50 cents only. There was no distance in that moment which was short, rare, and I knew it with a little sadness.

beside Kuala Lumpur

Here is far from Kuala Lumpur 30 minutes by car. It is not so far for the residents here to have fun in the capital on weekdays. However, they are two worlds. Here is Basham(I just know the sound they called this town, but maybe not the spelling). A lot of companies setted up their factories in Basham, and I think it made this town better. It is amazing that people wear the totally different styles in Kuala Lumpur and Basham, and they don't care about the difference as my observation. If you say "Big Apple" New York city is as known as an integrative city, I would like to say so to this region I have lived in half month. Here are three main groups, Malay, Chinese and Indian, living here. The languages they used are English, Malay and their mother languages. My Malay is still poor, but I could feel the situation they stay at is peaceful. Seemingly, at least. It is anothter shock to me that the people here are so kind and friendly. Taiwanese are well-known as a polite country, but I always found that people are more polite and friendly in the countries I have ever been. It is shame, but it makes me want to be a better Taiwanese. I think I used to looked at events or people in a negative way first, and then midified it to a positive way gratually. When I saw a person who worked with a poker face, I thought he was doing his job in a bored and aweful mood, but who knows maybe he was thinking about his girlfriend totally. :) The more countries you have been, the more you learn and the less of judgements you keep in. This is the best gift I got since I satrted to visit different cities, countries and cultures.