Sunday, May 17, 2009


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This morning, I finished a movie,"I spit on your grave". It is a famous movie which was abandoned to be public until recent decade. Maybe the reasons for this movie to be abandoned are that it includes violence, sex, mistreatment, and something which was over the morality or rules in that era. It was made in 1978 if I remember it correctly. Haha. This movie shows everything in our daylives nakedly. Sorry I am not going to decribe anything about the drama, but the feel I obtained in it. First of all, it was made in thirty years ago, but it is not boring or inferior at all. Instead of Taiwanese movies, there are no aged and toneless periods in it, but the same feeling as modern movies which includ excitement, interesting tempo, and attractive points step by step. How could the director make that movie in a modern way before thrity years?
The second, this movie made me miss up one of my unforgettable ex-ex-ex-.... girlfriend. How come? I have not thought about her for a long long time. Why she came out suddenly? Then I figuared out one theory later. Humanbeing is like a object as an iron or a piece of wood. I mean if you can do something to change the state of these materials or the arrangement of molecules in them by some specific methods, maybe it is possible for us to do something to stimulate ourselves or others to become different characters or whom we want to be. I mean that we can catch some stimulation actively, instead of being passively.
I tried to figure out what was existing in my mind clearly, but it was not successful. However, I think it could be a helpful shortcut to find out who we are and what we want. :))

Sunday, May 3, 2009

What I think is what I am


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It was weird. Two of my closed friends told me something about my defects recently. After we watched a movie,"Yes, man.", we talked a lot. The main point in our conversation is related to that movie because he wanted me to be positive and stop giving my opinions to my previous jobs and his friend's job. He thought I have never changed myself at all, and the worst thing was I turned back to the origin. I was confused about why he told me that and what he indeed wanted to make me understand. Two days after that was today. He called me again to express that he really wanted to finish what he wanted to convey to me totally even though we have talked more than two hours already that day. I thought maybe I do have a big problem, but I also wondered why you knew what is right or wrong. And even you can give me some opinions about international trade which you have no experience about, but just have watched the process. And, you are a computer engineer. And I was a salesman ever. You might be right, and so do I. I am thinking if it is "right" that people who have good jobs, beautiful families, and money understand what is exactly a right way to live or to perchase everything. Be honestly, it seems logical and rational because they already have what most people want in the world and they do reach some goals in their lives, but I haven't. I think it is my self-esteem to make me think in this way. I am not willing to recognize that I chose the wrong way to live my life or to be myself before. Having a good job, a wonderful family, and money can be a successful complishment. Also it could stand for yourself. I am a loser if comparing to you. So I think everything in a different way because we are in different positon and situation. I believe I will do the same thing to others if I am as successful as you. I am fortunate that I am not as good as you 'cause I know what you have now totally after you worked so hard for so long time and it makes me feel happy to you, but it doesn't make me feel envious or jealous about your everything. Well, if you get hundred million fortune, then maybe I will be jealous of you. haha. I appreciate what you told and did for me sincerely. I wish I can repay you and other successful friends my excellent complishment which I make by my way to show you something new and interesting in the world. :))