Diane Arbus

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Recently, I was unusual to study some boods which I would never have interests in before. I was excited about it, but also worried too. Diane Arbus, a female photographer, suicided to end her life. I learned that most famous or strange and famous people had different childhood, or choosed defferent life unconsciously or consciously. I am afraid that I have the ability to make the same decision, but i doubt I am ready to take the result. However, it shocked me strongly. That book which named as Diane Arbus's biography was written by a reporter who collected a lot of details except Diane Arbus's family members. I read it hardly because of my poor English, of course. haha. Well, it indeed is a heavy and thick book too. Due to my poor English, I skipped the main part in the book, and focused on what she had done when she was alive. She took many many pictures which come from deep inside of her. I felt I was looking for a spirit that she had to achieve what she desired always without fear. There are only few days I can stay in the world. So are you and others. Is what I am supposed to do what I have done? I am sad and shame about that I have to say "No". Time is passing and life is still on my hands. Be brave to Do it.

Happy Chinese COW Year

Well, I am back to Taiwan now, but I will not go back to Malaysia. Time is passing, and things are changing all the time. What am I going to do now? I will open a new business with my best friend and his older brother. The interesting stuff is that there are two common sayings with are related to three persons. One says that three normal people who can cooperate could be better than one smartest guy. Another one says that three monks have no water to drink. Yes, you get it. Our team is composed by three people. So which one is the one we are similiar with? I have no ideas yet, and I wanna know it anxiously too. Guys in Maylaysia are passionate and friendly. They make me feel sad and guilty after I left them because of my personal desire. It is selfish and unkind. They are a professional group whose members are humble and pure. I have never met these kind of people who are pro without any arrogance. It is because of the background of the country or its culture. I do learned a lot in Malaysia, even though I will be there for a period of time. And buddy, "you" have my words that I will find you when I go to Malaysia. I promise. Now back to my business. It is about something we can do for disabled and elders. It is ideal and beautiful but not so realistic. Now here are some arguement happened already, and I think it will be frequently. Finally, I decided to give me and my partners three months at least to see if we can help each other to reach the goal. SOmetimes I just feel I am doing what I should already do when I was young, but it makes me feel more complete. In the moment, Chinese new year, I wish our team can make something happened and keep our friendship as usual. Wish all my friends have a wonderful COW year. Healthy and happy. :))

Roam

Best female friend shouted at me, "Isn't it enough for you to roam two years ?" "What hell that $800 dollars means to you?! Dawn it!!" Yes, she is totally right. Money is nothing to me but time. 2 years = 730 days = 17520 hours = 1,051,200 minutes = 63,072,000 seconds. It is good to have this experience, but it is expensive. You get something while you lose another one or more at the same time. I believe it. It is fine except you are reluctant to get something you are interested in because you are afraid of losing what you already owned or you also have interest in. However, what is the worthest stuff in the world or in your personal world is the hardest judgement for a human being. It depends on only you. well, maybe it is time to move forward or perhaps I was moving all the time but it looked like I was at the same position all the time. Best male friend talked to me, "Wanna have our business in Taiwan?"" You are welcome to join us immeliately!!" This is an opportunity. And it came on time. What hell I am thinking about? As chief Jimmy said, "I don't care what your xxxx, just try it! Just try!" Ok, ok. I will do it. lol thanks a lot, buddies.