About Windsor

It was a capricious decision. I gave myself a one week vacation to visit Windsor. It was a correct decision definitely. I understand what live is after I spent the time only on sleeping, eating, reading and playing poker except watching TV and playing video games. In that period of time, I read one chapter of "Tuesdays of Morrie" about death and one chapter of "becoming vegetarian". Some familiar sentence came out again. " Are you the person you want to be? Do you live in the life you want to live?" DO I? How to distinguish a person who is brave or not? Can he walk alone in a dark street at midnight? Or dare he challenge the authority? It is brave without doubt, but how about presenting ourselves nakedly without any affectation? I know I can not do it now. I am so afraid to lose my friends if I jusy be myself. It is ridiculous, isn't it? It happens in my life always. When I have a completely private time with myself, I can think everything deeply. When I am exhausted, my feeling becomes more sensitive. Everytime I lose something, I regret why I didn't make decision earlier.